Father God, You are my everything and I adore You! Jesus, You are my best friend and without You, my life is worth nothing! Holy Spirit, when I think of You and as I breathe, I feel You, I hear You! Thank You for taking over my life!
In 2007, I 
applied for an Assistant Director post in the Department where I worked. At first, I was not interested because I was content with what I had and with what I was doing in my career. However, after a friend received Word that I had to apply for the post, I was obedient and did just that. In the month that followed until short-listing, I prayed for God’s will, yet in my heart I doubted myself and was certain that I would not be short-listed. From a materialistic point of view, I would earn a substantial amount more per month, but that in itself was not enough to drive me to the decisions made. Well, after a month I received a letter inviting me and my boss to the same interview. Needless to say that it was a bit uncomfortable for me and furthermore I had to do a lot of reading as it was in a completely different direction in Human Resources (HR).
The interview was scheduled for a half a day, with language and computer tests prior to the actual interview. I went in and did my best, purely because that was what God wanted me to do. Even just before the interview, I still had doubts and wanted to withdraw. After a long process I received notice that I did well in the interview but that due to internal HR reasons, another candidate was selected for appointment. I was so relieved, it did not bother me at all, because the post would require of me to work on a much higher strategic level and I simply did not think I could do that. Ah, so here we come to the real reason behind my doubt, my own thoughts on my inability to do God’s will. After six more months, I received a phone call, indicating that the gentleman who was appointed in the post had moved on and they offered me the appointment without another interview. I was stunned, and scared all in one.
I prayed and although that feeling of, I can’t, kept on coming up, God kept on saying GO! I was then appointed into the post, full of doubts, yet being obedient. After about three months of complaining to God that I thought, He should have chosen someone else, He spoke very hard to me through John 15:16 that says “but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit – fruit that will last.” From that day, I stopped arguing, stopped asking and although from time to time, doubt would creep in, I would look up above my office door to where I placed the scripture God gave me, reading and believing it. Amen!
To add to the above, I received Word that I was going to write. At that point in time I just shook my head because language and writing was never my interest and probably my worst subjects in school. Needless to say, after four years of receiving the Word, I started writing inspirational articles, simply on sharing God’s work in my own life. Lastly I want to share with you that in 2009, I was requested to be a spokesperson for an occasion on Woman’s Day. Now just as much as I disliked language in school, I was terrible with having to present oral topics or anything in that line, to a group of people. After a lot of prayer and consultation with God, I did it, because that was what He said He expected of me to do. He asked me to say yes, and then He gave me all the words to speak. All the glory to Him!
Precious reader, why am I sharing this with you? Well, many times, we look brave, we even sound brave, because others must please just never find out how scared we really are. They must just not look right through us and see that we actually also have doubts. Today I want to tell you that in your weakest moment, God takes you and makes you a winner. He sees something in us that we obviously don’t see. He thinks and talks about us in a way we don’t. When I doubt, I stand in front of my mirror and look deeper until I see more of me. Dear reader, take time and think deeper, look deeper and you’ll see that you are capable of so much more than what you are now, where you are now! Every time you say I can’t, He says, You can! (Phil 4:13)
The year 2010 offers you so much, the question is, what will you do with it? It is really very easy. You can sit back or you can stand up and take up every challenge and every opportunity. When you doubt, seek God’s guidance and if He says YES, then it is YES, and only then by faith you will be able to climb the mountain to the top. Amen! I just want to tell you today dear reader, if God could do it for me, He can and will do it for you. The question is, do you trust Him? Do you trust yourself? Come on let’s be changed by Him, to think differently. Take up new challenges in faith, believe in yourself like Jesus does and make a difference in the lives you! Amen!
You might ask, why me? Today God tells you, because you can!
With lots of love in Jesus Name,
Princess K
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