Humble yourself

4 March 2010

Father God, I worship You and You alone.  Lord Jesus, You are my best friend and I honour You as the son of God!  Holy Spirit, You are my life, my every breath and without You my life is empty.  I glorify You with everything that is within me. Amen!

Dear reader I would like to share with you my experience over the past two months.  I was preparing a word from God to share with other ladies.  Now in this process, I knew that I had to fast and pray so that I could hear God’s voice very clear.  I had to be sure that whatever I say, was from Him alone.  So for about two months I prayed and seeked my Fathers heart.  During this time I was under tremendous attack in that I was challenged with very negative thoughts and feelings for no reason at all.  I could identify how I felt but could not explain why I felt like that, almost like an attack of depression.  Now this does not normally happen to me because I always try to rejoice in everything and where ever I go, hence the confusion when it occurred.

I started asking for prayer from loved ones and started asking God to show me what was wrong.  In the end nothing was wrong, it was simply a very serious attack from satan on my life to stop me from preparing the word God had for these special ladies.  Now during this time, I wanted to pray for each lady, which I did not necessarily knew. I wanted God to prepare their hearts and minds for what He had to say to them, and this is what I did.  However, every time I prayed for the ladies I experienced God telling me to humble myself in prayer.  I then realised that no matter how much I wanted to prepare the ladies for God’s message, I had to stand completely under His guidance and blood in order to deliver the message.  I started to fast and pray and daily stripped myself of the own self.  I desired more and more to become less, to strip myself and to stand “naked” before God.

All I wanted was Him, more of Him.  I wanted to eat, sleep, drink, think, work and live Jesus.  Two weeks from the event, I experienced a change.  I no longer had feelings of depression attacking me and please note I say attacking me, because none of us must ever be slaves of depression.  Depression does not own us, God owns us and therefore we are simply challenged by feelings of depression. Amen!  So with no further attacks of negative feelings, I started experiencing a twirl wind of blood, Jesus’ blood around me and for the last two weeks of preparation, I did not only knew, like always, that I was protected by the blood of Jesus, but I felt it.  It was so powerful, that I could see all attacks on my life being blown away before it even reached me.

Wow, I was so blessed, so experiencing the Spirit of God taking over, taking control, that I simply just enjoyed His presence.  For the first time in a long while, I experienced God like I have never experienced Him before.  Now in all this, the daily fast and prayer mainly consisted of proclaiming that Jesus is in control of my life and this event and that He would shine through me.  That it is not about me, but all about Him.  I humbled myself and Jesus lifted me up and up, to the degree that I never want to return from where I am now. Amen!  Dear reader, the night of the event, Jesus was there personally and the Holy Spirit of God spoke through me.  It was awesome and I can’t explain in words what that meant for my walk with God.  It changed me.  It changed the way I think, and the way I approach and do things.  Thank you Jesus! Amen!

Dear reader, during this time God further challenged me.  I was taken back about seven years to a time when I did something that God had showed me now, was wrong.  I had to humble myself after seven years and had to go back to the parties involved to ask forgiveness.  Now let me tell you that this was not easy, but because of the humbleness God has been taking me through, I knew that it would set me free.  It is so amazing how God after so many years still takes us back to go and clear things up in the past.  The reason for this is that satan only has a past and therefore if things of the past is not cleared up, satan will continue to go back and try to use the past to challenge us.

Maybe today, you find yourself in a situation where you have been wronged, or perhaps you have done wrong to others.  Then again, maybe it might be that you are standing before great decisions or that you are preparing for something big.  Whatever it might be, I want to tell you today that it starts with humbleness.  Go before God and humble yourself.  Now this process is sometimes not easy and it could even hurt feelings.  It might mean that you have to go back and ask forgiveness to others even if you did nothing wrong.  However, the results will be that of strength and healing.  God says in James 4 verse 10 “humble yourselves before the Lord, and He will lift you up.”  This is God’s promise and believe me it is true, because it is exactly what I have experienced the last two months.  I feel so lifted up, so strengthened, so free!  Thank you, Jesus.

Dear reader, be set free in Jesus name! Humble yourselves, and God will lift you up. That is His promise!

With lots of love in Jesus Name
Princess K