A Dreamer

All my life I have been a DREAMER!

I dreamt of growing up in the perfect family…only to find my parents to divorce after 34 years of a loveless marriage.

I dreamt as a little girl of that perfect white wedding day and the “happy ever after” picture….. only to find 2 failed marriages later and the duplicated pain and wounds of adultery.

I dreamt of having my own business one day…..only to find 1 year later into the entrepreneur venture, a failed and closed business and back working for a boss again.

I dreamt of having lots of children of my own and the perfect family portrait…..only to find myself having medical problems conceiving and at 36 years of age, my 1^st child.

As each day progresses and life runs by, as the years passes and the age matures….I am still a dreamer….

The ever changing thoughts, hopes and dreams still stay…..I am still a dreamer!

What makes me a dreamer?!

God has unequally made me to be who I am today! Through hardships, tears, pain, uncertainty, stress, grieving and failures, He was there and He held me in His Hands.     I could hear His whisper through the rain….”keep on dreaming”! The never ending coloring of pictures, thoughts and ideas ….

Today I still dream of my perfect family life…. this keeps me grounded and thankful knowing that God has given me a wonderful devoted husband and a perfect loving child…a dream come true!

Today I still dream of having my own successful business…..this makes me strife for more as I know what I am capable off and what I have become in Him! And with Him all things will be possible, successful and fruitful!

Today I dream of Jesus…… the touchable reality of His love and mercy for me is so intensely experienced every day! I feel the warmth of His arms, the safety of His lap, I see His feet…He is my dream giver!

Love dies when you stop caring…

Hope dies when you stop believing…

Life dies when you stop dreaming…

I walk every day knowing that whatever I become is the ability that He has given me to strife for a better tomorrow! My dreams lies within ME…..I am the dreamer!