Are you living a lie?

Glory to my God, Saviour and King!  Blessed be the name of Jesus and worthy is Lamb that was slay.  Amen!

As I grow in Christ, He takes me on journeys, many of which I could never have imagined of.  This often includes journeys into my past.  I mean, God forgives and never looks at the past again, right?  Yes, however, if we have not dealt with certain things and have not asked forgiveness to those we have sinned against, we have unclosed chapters in our lives.  God takes us back to the past, because many things that has caused pain, humiliation and unforgiveness we have locked up and thrown away the key, hoping that those things would simply disappear forever.  However, our Father God loves us too much to allow unclosed chapters and unforgiveness to eat at our hearts like cancer.  I want to share with you something that happened in my own life about a year ago, and trust that through this testimony you will examine your own life and heart to go and make amends where it need be.

At the beginning of January 2011, we were on holiday and as I was resting one afternoon, God was speaking to my heart.  He told me that I had lied about something many years ago and that I was still living that lie.  I was shocked as I dislike lies and could not believe that I have not dealt with it before.  He took me back to 1990, the year my husband and I found out that I was pregnant, however not married.  As I was lying on my bed, it was like a movie playing in front of me and I relived it all again.  I will never forget the disappointment on the faces of my parents and loved ones around me.  They all tried to be strong for me, but I knew their hearts.

I already at that point in my life, loved Jesus and therefore I was also very disappointed in myself but soon realised that to dig a hole and hide myself in it, would not help me to heal.  We asked the Lord’s forgiveness and moved on and today, our beautiful daughter is twenty-one.  She knows who she is in Christ and that she was created out of love.  As I was still lying on my bed, I saw myself standing in the kitchen with my mother who asked me one simple question.  She asked how many times it had happened before I fell pregnant.  I was ashamed and scared at that point in time and answered “only once.”  I knew that it was a lie, yet I just could not get myself to tell her the truth.

At that point in time with God showing me all this, more than 20 years back, I felt the pain I have caused with that lie.  I have grown so much in my walk with Christ, yet I could not even remember to go back in time and tell my mother the truth.  Right there and then I asked God to forgive me and I also prayed and forgave myself.  He then told me it was time to call my mother and to tell her the truth, after more than 20 years.  I cried terribly and prayed continuously that the Holy Spirit would guide me and talk on my behalf.  Without any further delay, I made the call and although crying from my heart, I told my mother the truth and asked her forgiveness.  The best part of it all is that her words to me was, “I knew the truth all along, and I forgave you a long time ago.  However, thank you for telling me the truth while I am still alive.”  Wow, praise You Jesus for the truth and that Your word is true in saying that “the truth will set you free.” (John 8:32)

This is one of many stories I can share with you.  You see, it is not about just physically telling a lie.  Sometimes we keep the truth from our colleagues, our bosses, our family, our parents, our husbands and wives.  What we don’t always realise is that by not telling them the truth, is nothing other than a lie.  We often make mistakes and although we must share it with those we love, we keep it from them because we don’t want to hurt or disappoint them.  Don’t you see, telling the truth might hurt someone, but one can at least work through that hurt and then ultimately forgiveness brings healing.  However, when you keep the truth from someone, you have lied and God hates lies (Prov 6:16 – 19).  God will always bring out the truth because He loves us to much to allow us to live a lie.  When the truth then comes out, the other parties involved now have to work through forgiveness and also trust, which understandably is not easy to restore.

I am past the stage in my life, where I feel ashamed of my past mistakes that I have overcome through Christ.  I believe that by telling this story will bring healing to others.  The question I have to you right now is whether you are living a lie?  Have you done or are you doing something that your loved ones should know about and should forgive you for?  Have you, like me, locked away the truth, hoping it will never have to be revealed?  If this is you reading this article, I want to tell you that Jesus is waiting for you, knocking at the door of your heart.  Don’t delay; tell the truth, no matter what it is and no matter how long ago it happened.  Ask forgiveness from those you have hurt and if you don’t know where to find them, or if they have passed on, then write them a letter from your heart, read it aloud and burn it afterwards.  Then also ask Jesus to forgive you and then very important, also forgive yourself.  Trust me, you might have to face the consequences, but if you do all this I told you, through the Holy Spirit of God, He will guide you through all the steps and you will be free! (1 John 1:9 & Rom 8:1).

Are you living a lie?  Now is the time to be free!  Put out your hands to Jesus and allow Him to bring healing to your heart.

With lots of love in Jesus Name

Princess K

PS:  Dear reader, please remember that the scripture used are from the New International Version.  If the scripture is read in another language and translation it might differ slightly.  A verse in the NIV might be a different one in your bible, i.e. Ps 37:3 in the NIV might be Ps 37:4 in your bible.  This does not always occur, but has happened in some instances.