When nothing makes sense

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Father, thank You for making me Your child.  Jesus Christ, thank You for dying on the cross for me, overcoming death and giving me eternal life.  Holy Spirit thank You for giving life to me.  Amen!

All is well with my soul and I feel loved and protected.  As I sit here at work, I think back to last night and how special dinner was with my loved ones.  Amy laughed from her stomach at Jeremy’s jokes.  Tom was telling all of us how he planned to take us as a family on a holiday at the end of the year and that Margate was the planned destination.  The kids were so excited about the news, they did not want to go to sleep.  I realised once again how privilege we are to be such a happy family with good health, well paid salaries and kids who excel at every area of their lives.  The phone suddenly interrupted my thoughts and when I answered the person on the other side said:  “Are you Ms Mitchell?”

I confirmed that she was correct.  She then said:  “Ms Mitchell, this is Dr Adams from Netcare 24 in Johannesburg.  Mam your husband has been in an accident and is lying critical in ICU.  Can you please come to the hospital immediately?”  I dropped the phone, grabbed my keys and without telling anyone I left the office and raced to the hospital.  On arrival, Dr Adams took my hands, looked into my eyes and said:  “Ms Mitchell, he didn’t make it.  I am so sorry.”  I fell to the ground and realised my life has suddenly changed forever.  It has been two weeks since the news of Tom’s death and looking at Amy and Jeremy crying themselves to sleep, people coming and going after the funeral and me lying alone in bed, I realised that my life has been shattered and suddenly nothing is making sense anymore.

Dear reader.  Are you currently feeling like Ms Mitchell?  Is your life currently in shambles and are you feeling as if nothing is making sense at this moment?  I think at some point in our lives, we all go through moments when we feel that nothing is making sense.  I remember when my mother had a stroke and she was lying in a coma at hospital.  All the years she has been so strong for the whole family and then suddenly she was lying there helpless and waiting on the Lord to come and fetch her.  I remember when phoning the hospital just after twelve that night because I felt in my heart that something was wrong.  When the sister told me that my mother passed away, I recall feeling ill in my stomach.  My mentor, my coach, taken from me.  I felt so empty and for a couple of days nothing made sense.  Was God not supposed to heal her when we prayed and believed?  I realised after some time that God’s plan is not my plan and that if it was time for Him to fetch my mother home, He had to see His plan through.

What about you dear reader?  What have you been going through lately?  Are you in a situation where nothing is making sense to you right now?  I can’t give you any answers for your exact situation.  However, I can tell you that God knows what is going on in your life.  He is the one who created you and planned out your life.  Perhaps you have been hurt by someone or perhaps you have been the cause of someone’s hurt.  What matters most right now is that you take some time out and reflect on the situation you are in.  Can you change what has happened?  No!  We can’t change the past.  We can’t reverse our actions and if we have lost someone through death, we can’t bring back their life.  However, we can make a difference now by choosing life and changing circumstances around for tomorrow.  If you know you have an opportunity to say sorry, do that.  If you know you have an opportunity to reconcile with loved ones and friends, do that.  Don’t delay.

If you find yourself in a situation right now that you feel you have no control over, then sit back and ask the Lord to reveal Himself to you in this situation.  Ask Him to help you make sense of what is going on.  I believe with all my heart that when you seek God in prayer and ask Him for wisdom, He will reveal Himself to you.  He will show you what to do.  Be bold and with faith ask and wait for His guidance on what you should do and say in an appropriate manner that will bring a difference to the situation and help you to make sense of what is going on.  (James 1:5, Jeremiah 29:12 – 14)

As I write this article I feel people’s emotions very deeply.  I know that there are many people feeling lonely, hurt, betrayed and at a loss for words.  You may not know what is going on and you may not know what to do about it.  I want to pray with you right now:

“Lord Jesus, You know our hearts.  You know the pain people are in right now, the chaos, questions and uncertainties.  Lord, please put your arms around every man, woman and child feeling pain right now.  Please bring comfort to those who are not making any sense of what is happening in their lives right now Lord.  Jesus Christ, You hung on that cross and called out to Your Father in Heaven and asked Him why He had forsaken You.  You felt alone and probably betrayed as well.  However, when death came, Your Father gave You victory over death and over satan and today You reign forever.  Lord, please also give life right now to those so in need thereof, I pray.  Let people who hurt right now feel You, experience You and hear Your voice in the midst of the pain and uncertainty.  I pray this in Jesus name!  Amen!”

Dear reader if you are feeling like nothing is making sense right now, seek God, ask Him to reveal Himself to you and to tell you what is going on.  Then wait on Him and trust Him unconditionally.  (Proverbs 3:5).  He has never failed me and he will never fail you.  Amen!

Lots of love

Princess K

PS:  Dear reader, please remember that the scripture used are from the New International Version.  If the scripture is read in another language and translation it might differ slightly.  A verse in the NIV might be a different one in your Bible, i.e. Ps 37:3 in the NIV might be Ps 37:4 in your bible.  This does not always occur, but happens in some instances.